Credit where credit is due

Contrary to what a lot (?) of people think, I hate confrontation. I suppose my stubbornness and sense of what is the 'right' thing to do, balances my fear or at least discomfort of speaking out and up.

Today I initiated a conversation, I really didn't want to have. And I think it went well and might have even been appreciated. It unfortunately doesn't change various underlying issues. And I am also not sure how to process the information I got. But I don't have to solve it all in a day, right? :-)

Stop the understanding niceness!

I'm not sure how long this has lasted but God, I am in a foul mood! And I am pissing myself off.
So, please guys, just tell me to stop the moaning and get a grip!
Niceness is not helping!!!
Cause let's face it: life is good. I know it.
Even if I currently seem to prefer to feel sorry for myself...

Top five ways to confuse a Londoner

I love the Time Out lists! 

And I miss London... 

Why I love travelling

- seeing new places
- meeting new people
- experiencing new things
- eating lots of great food
- having a break from every day life

Why I hate travelling*

- living out of a suitcase
- packing way too much stuff and then having to schlepp it around (just in case and so to be prepared for all weather/temperature/occasions)
- waiting around at airports and train stations
- feeling the pressure to make the most of every single minute when really I just want to have a nap


*that should of course really read: what I don't like about travelling ;-)

Better

The wonderful side effect of having shitty days is that less shitty days appear quite good.

Off to Vienna tomorrow! :-)

TV highlights

Austria's Next Topmodel:
Presenter asks one of the models who has a little girl: do you think about her a lot?
Ahem, no, never.
Next...

Not sure whether I keep watching the wrong channels, but so far German TV has proven to be pretty terrible. And my ears are still not used to watching American shows in the German version. It sounds so wrong!!

It's not worth it

My new mantra.
And: who cares about this nonsense in the grand scheme of things?

Well, I unfortunately still do. But in the interest of preventing myself from having a heart attack and growing even more white hair, I am trying to teach myself to let it bother me less and less.
Today I left the office to get to my new evening class on time despite unanswered, supposedly urgent emails in my inbox.
As silly as it may sound: that constitutes progress for me!

McNeely, Stretch & Co

My first icehockey match and I am a fan.
6:2 against the Eispiraten Crimmitschau.

Finally

After 2.5 months here, it was about time for me to have my first massage here in Rosenheim. I have to say, it's a bit frustrating that I was able to get cheaper massages in London than here! Nevertheless, they are pretty essential in my life these days, and it's one of the luxuries I am happy to spend money on.

I booked a 60 minute aromatherapy massage at bodysano with Sandro. How better to start a weekend on a Friday night. I am always amazed at how long the 60 minutes appear - as you would think it flies by when you are so relaxed.

Sandro did comment that I should really come back weekly for a little while as my upper back is very tense. Which I am fully aware of. Not only is it a financial matter of course, but also a matter of fitting it into my diary. Which I am getting back to the busy-ness I enjoyed in London. And I can feel how beneficial that has been for me: I am feeling so much more relaxed and happier. Work is still what it was before, but I am not letting it stress me in the same way. For now anyway.

Come cuddle me

I love Lilly! This is really the best of both worlds: I can go and cuddle Lilly, the office dog, on a daily basis, but I don't have to deal with dog hair all over my flat, or going for walks in the rain. Perfect!

Today, I was keeping Lilly company while her owner was getting a tattoo. Lilly always makes sure she gets your attention. Whenever I stopped stroking her, she would come and nudge me and snuggle up to me. It was so cute!!! Maybe there's something for us to learn: why not just tell or show the people around us what we need from them, instead of assuming they can read our mind. It might of course be easier, if we were all as cute as Lilly is...

8 tips to getting on with the boss

I read this article today and I can honestly say that I have no interest in asking any of these questions. I am clearly not interested in having a career, am I?
Alternatively, it's my stubbornness that tells me that my work should speak for itself and there's no need to play games or use tactics to get ahead.

What the %&*$??

I had four IKEA glasses. As we all know, I smashed one of them last week. Leaves three, right?
Tonight I could only find one. Then I discovered a second one in my dishwasher (I can only assume that my colleague put it there when she stayed last week). But where the heck is the third one?
My flat really isn't THAT big...

Am I already losing my marbles?? :-(

waistband issues

I had completely forgotten that I had started this skirt back in London. And had already sewn most of it together. And this is one of the reasons that I don't usually start several projects at the same time but only start something new, once the previous project is done: I was pretty confused with the pieces I had cut out and what else was left to do. The waistband is a complete disaster... As I tend to wear my tops over the waistband, I decided it wasn't worth starting again.

So, this is the first garment I made in my new sewing room :-) Pity that autumn has started. But I am sure I can still wear it with tights, too.

PS: I love those wedges, especially as I feel super tall in them!

Scherben bringen Glueck

So the saying goes (shards are meant to bring luck). Well, not so much for me this week.

One of my four IKEA glasses somehow slipped out of my hand the other day and it resulted in literally thousands of mini pieces. Which were a pain to clear up. But it did look quite pretty. My ability to look at the bright side of things is quite amazing these days! ;-)

And then the next day I had my first car accident. No worries: I was not hurt. I was driving out of the underground car park after work. I did stop but because of the parking cars, I couldn't see the guy on his scooter. Who then crashed into my car. He also didn't seem to be seriously hurt but got taken to hospital anyway. Police was called and I was standing around not having a clue what to do.

On the one hand, I am so grateful that nothing worse happened. But on the other hand, I don't know how I could have avoided it as I DID stop and look. And the thought of something worse happening is a scary one for sure.

The next day, I just wanted to stay in bed and was close to calling in sick... but then decided that this would not help with anything, so I did go to work and also made myself drive as I don't want to be too scared to do stuff.

Mirroring

Imitating another person. 

You want to snap at me? 

Well, I'll snap back. 

Ah, you don't like that? 

Interesting.

I might as well play this game. Cause that is all it is at the end of the day. 

I have a feeling though that I will lose interest in this game pretty quickly.

Pinking it up

Setting a record

I put the heating on today.
On 5th September. This must surely be a record.

Gone are the days where I more or less went through the whole winter months without switching on my heating cause my flat was so warm. Such a pity, as heating was included in my rent at the time...
We'll see how much this will increase my bills now.

expect the unexpected

Today's events completely threw me.

By trying to prepare for the outcomes of a meeting, I clearly had focused solely on the worst possible outcome that the turn of events came totally out of the blue.

I am confused.

I shall put that aside for the weekend and start afresh on Monday.

always

My blog discipline since moving to Germany as been abysmal (always reminds me of that friends episode...). Which really is a pity as there is always so much I could be telling you about!
I definitely hope to catch up over the weekend.

In summary: 
I spent 6 days in London. Primarily working unfortunately but on the odd occasion I was also able to catch up with friends and enjoy some good food.
I delivered my first event in the new job and thanks to a team of 18 amazing hosts and hostesses, it went brilliantly.
I spent lots of time standing about and serving people coffee - and yes, I enjoyed it as much as you might imagine.
I treated myself to the cinema and cried my eyes out over Inside Out.
After coming back, I went to IKEA, didn't get lost on the way and have most furniture for my flat now. Only a sofa left to buy.
I pretty much made another life changing decision (which decision isn't??!).

Good night for now.