have faith!

When going through old unpublished blog posts, I came across one where I was monitoring my week and an appointment with Linda, a holistic healer.

It was a list of situations that had frustrated me, and my reactions to them, trying not to let my anger get the better of me. Linda's feedback to me was that I had had a tough week and that I should be proud of myself for the way I had dealt with things. She thought I had great insight and that I should trust my abilities.

Not sure whether it's ironic or sad, that about three years later, I had a similar thing said to me by one of the assistants at the NLP course. That I am a quick learner, that I am good at calibrating my 'clients', that I quickly implement new learnings and that I really should trust my abilities more.

The whole subject of me and accepting (positive) feedback is of course a recurring theme. And I am aware that I tend to be 'intrinsic' (thanks to a personality test as well as coaching feedback I've had), meaning that I need to feel that I am doing well, that I did a good job. While positive feedback is nice and I do also crave it at times, when it doesn't fit with my own perception of myself/a situation, it becomes worthless.

I do believe that this is works well for me in some ways. As I shouldn't depend on what other people think of me. The downside - at the moment - is of course, that I am very often robbing myself of the pleasure to simply enjoy a compliment. And that secondly, I too often take negative feedback too seriously. Instead of applying the same filter as I do for positive feedback. Cause just the same way I don't believe the good stuff, the logic should be not to believe the bad stuff either. Or at least not before exploring how it fits in with my own judgment.